And it came to pass on the second day...

...that i still have no idea what to write. But I also know that if I don't write something EVERYDAY that I'll never write anything. So here goes...day 2.

You know, it really amazes me just ho up and down a day can go. It's like one minute you are flying high and the next you are downtrodden. But then again maybe we as humans are FAR too sensitive to that. More worried about our feelings as opposed to what is best for us. Best opportunities to grow and to learn.

Take food for example. Now remember that I am trying to eat better and take care of myself. I don't wanna die early or have to rely on taking pills everyday to survive. Hell, I cant remember to take vitamins everyday without having to leave myself notes. So yeah, me and pills...no good.

So last night I got tired of eating crap, so I went out and got some fish..Tilapia. I remembered a recipe that we did at High Cotton restaurant, so I modified it and made it for me and my parents.
I eneded up making it with a breading of panko and Parmesean cheese..then topped it with sauteed red and yellow peppers and a buerre blanc. I had no idea how i remembered the method for it, but it all came back all at once. I was like a machine in the kitchen..not thinking...just acting. It came out awesome..better than you can get at any restaurant. Mike Zajac (my mentor from long ago) would be so proud.

So that when well..and i even decided to make home made dark chocolate espresso brownies for dessert. Soft,rich, moist and crispy outside. it was perfect. Gotta love Gordon Ramsay recipes. but they were so rich, you could only eat them in 1 inch squares without feelin like you were gonna get sick. There's still half a pan downstairs now. All in all, not totally healthy, but better food than you can pay for... and all natural..no crap. GO ME!

So fast forward to today. Breakfast: yougurt...good. lunch: frozen taquitos????? dinner: CHICK FIL A strips and fries?????? Have I not learned anything??? One step up and two steps back....thanks Bruce. (Name that song for 10 points)

But I did go out and paly disc golf again today. This has been an on again/ off again love affair since 1997. Thansk Brian Stuppy for introducin me to this fell mistress. I love the ame but haent gotten to where i am completely confident in it. I need to develop "the snap," where it looks like the disc is bein launched from your arm as oppsed to just being thrown. The pros can chuck a disc upwards of 500 feet..and make it look effortless. But some are 6'6" and lanky as hell, so they produce a crazy amount of torque. I am not, plus I am big and i have relatively short arms. I can still go about 300 feet, but it is me really muscling the disc down the field. Imagine what will happen when i get the snap....look out PDGA! lol This just like it all...takes time.

So I am talkin with an old friend, rehashing the past and "remember the time" stories. IT makes me wonder....what if I had done one or two things right. What if I had gotten to the fork in the road and turned right instead of left? Would I be here now? Would I be happy? Where would my life be?

Then I think to myself: Is this healthy? Why am i spending so much time asking myself where i screwed up? Shouldn't I be more like "what CAN I DO differently?" I can't change the past. But I can make the future better. And I have got some ideas on that too.

I think when i et back to Florida, I'm gonna learn how to surf. It seems like they have a peace to them that sounds so enticing right now. Like they are at one with the world..or at least the ocean. Any takers??

Tomorrow....Sushi, Wine, Music and Running....in the rain.

P.S. Biggest Loser...Tara Costa....WOW. first off...you are gorgeous. second..you hae the heart of a lion. third..you are far and away THE BEST on the show this time.

Did I mention you are GORGEOUS?????